This month has already started out pretty chaotic. My mother-in-law in the ICU, my son needing a cast on his arm due to falling off his bicycle and fracturing/injuring his growth plate of his elbow, my older son dislocated his elbow and popped it back into place… Mind you this was by the 3rd of May.
As I was driving for my job this last week between seeing clients and other tasks, I had a realization that despite the fact I love that my job is an important one to many people, it’s not where I need to focus my time and energy right now. You see, I have been struggling to keep my mind and body in the proper state to be at work since last year. Not only that but recently was increased on my anti-depressant medication and am at the highest allowable amount.
It was a dawning… a mom of 6 children (16, 11, 10, 4, 2 and 4.5 months), working full-time, attempting to sell products with a direct sale business, keeping up with a happy household and a husband who went from working out of the house & keeping laundry going for our family of 8 to working back in the office because of a pay raise. My mother-in-law is the child care provider for the youngest 3 girls and well, for having 3 in child care while I work full-time in another location I’d be out a few more hundred than the family discount we get. It’s put me in a bind because there’s the real need for me to stay home and a desire to work.
So now, I’m trying to stumble back to my normal… you know before kids, without anti-depressants, back when I was invincible?? I know that won’t be my normal, so now I’m stumbling to a new normal.
I hope you will take some time to follow me and get to know me and my struggles, battles, and all the amazing victories… I have overcome a lot in my life and know that there is SOMETHING, SOMEWHERE in my life that others can relate to…